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Am I a Friend ... or a Joke?

By: Megan (View Profile)

I have a very serious medical mishap with my hand. My friends don’t really notice it, but I do. I don’t know who my friends are anymore. Do I have real friends ... or am I just one of their inside jokes? I am terrified no boy will ever like me. I am aware people talk about me behind my back, and I’ve heard the gossip. “I heard she got attacked by a dog and it ripped up her hand!” was one of them. No one knows how much I think about it, and I have no one to talk to about it. All my friends act like they’re really my friends, but now I’m starting to question that. My best friend was supposed to decorate my locker, and she didn’t. No one did. But everyone decorated another girl’s locker. I had known this girl for seven years, and on my birthday I got nothing. She’d met the other girl this year. I know this seems small, but I will never forget it, or how much it hurts.

Does anyone have any advice?

First published May 2010

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Meagan, your thoughts are a normal reflection of what has happened to you. I agree that you should get counseling. For what it's worth, I have cancer and everytime I mention it to someone they act as tho I have a combination the Black Plague and STDs. I have learned that other peoples reactions are their own problems but please take care of yurs with a little counseling. I am going to post an article soon called Words. It may give you a little insight into your problem.

Meagn, you need to get some counseling about this. I am not a counselor, nor would I pretend to be. But it seems you are very conscientious about your hand, and it is affecting your self esteem. Consider that your hand is yours - all yours. And no matter where you go, it's gonna be with you. Now, are you going to spend the rest of your life lamenting it, wishing it was "gone", deeply worried about what other people think of it - and of you? Or are you going to accept it, work with it, make it yours, and relegate yourself to the fact that if anyone else has a problem with YOUR hand - or with you - then that is THEIR problem, not yours? What OTHER people think of you or your hand is irrelevant, and you can't control that. But you can control what YOU think of your hand. . . and what you think of yourself. Seek counseling, hon. You need it.