Do you why we are abused? I just finished writing the first part of “The Power of Standing (Part 1)” and would like to add a few comments again. When someone abuses you any way possible, it is because they think that your life is so better than their lives to the point that they need to shut you down any way possible. They will tell you that you are nobody without them, they will call you names, and sometimes they will go as far as beating you. No matter what situation you might be living in, do not ever think low of yourself, you are much more than what he said you are. He is only projecting his own life on you. Because he is not worthy he will tell you that you are not worthy because someone (a family member told him that he was stupid when he was a child) he will tell you that you are stupid repeatedly until to think that he might be right, that you are really stupid. The choice and decision to make is all yours. Feel sorry and wonder what he has been through in his life but don’t think you can change that. There is nothing you can do to help him except leave him right away, unless you want to let him abuse you so he can feel that he is alive.
As it is for me, he helps me in a way that he could never imagine. When he was abusing, no one could really helped me out, not the police, not my family, not even myself. He had control of me except one thing. To get away from everything that was happening. I started to write little by little and the next thing I know I wrote a book a few months ago, which is about my life as a little girl, everything that I have been through. By writing this book I found myself in it and I understood more why I put up with this big mess. The explanation was surprising but simple. He made me believe that without him I don’t exist. He put the fear of being alone in my mind, I did not want to be alone in my life. That’s why.
Now I am an author and I don’t doubt for a second that I have success ahead of me. See I am much more that what he was thinking and saying I was. I turned something evil into something amazing. He told me when he found out that I was writing (One thing is that he always gets his way into my e-mail address), that I better stop writing because I was never going to be able to write a book. But I kept on writing I refused to let him take this part of me one more time. After my book got published now he wants to be part of it. Asking me how much I will give him out of my royalties. I simply look at him and for the first time in a long time, I saw the real him. I was smiling inside of me wondering how I could have left this person ruin my life? I did not respond to his question and he said: You better give me something because if not, well prepare to live with the consequences. I asked him what consequences are they? And he said I will make sure that everyone knows that you are not a good person at all, that you shoplifted once, and that you had an abortion and then we will see what happens next. I smile at him and said: “You can do whatever you want” and I walked away from him. Afraid not any more, he can do anything he wants but, it does not affect me anymore.
