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So tonight I made a comment about the key to his house that he gave me four months into our relationship. I said I did not want the key back because I don’t want to walk in on something—something like him having sex with someone else. I mean he told me he likes whores! That I am not. But he just called me and said I feel the way I feel because I don’t “keep” him or take care of him. Okay, so I pay for dinner, clean his house, wash his bathroom, was his nasty, smelly, dirty clothes, I give him sex even though he wants me to suck instead of enter. He does not like to have sex from the back. He likes to bend my legs so far back that I am hurting when we are done. In the beginning it was all good on my end because we were not having sex, but then when we did, he just opened a door of sexual toys, movies, bondage, and girl-on-girl. He is a pervert and his sex is perverted, like sticking his fingers in places when they need not be or shoving himself into me with no kind of foreplay. I hate sex with him because it is nasty and perverted. I have had long-term relationships; the first lasted four years and the next lasted six years. I went through a lot as a teenager, being raped twice and having men rub my legs and say sexual things to me at fifteen. I never talked about this until now. But it gets in the way because he feels like I am obligated to be his whore and his maid.
I make my own money, for one. I know how to be in a relationship, but there are boundaries and things I feel he does not respect. I am private, but he and his whole family are out in the world. My family and I are not. I have two kids by one man, and from that relationship I learned that no matter what I do, if he feels like he wants to step out, then he will, no matter what I am doing. So this is the point I am at. He does not have a job so he sleeps all day long. He wants me to step out of my comfort zone and I am fighting him tooth and nail. But tonight he made that comment and it is really bothering me because I do take care of him. I paid for his ex-wife’s car to get fixed, I give him huge lump sums of money to blow, and I lose out every time I do this. I hate having sex with him because he does not shower or brush his teeth. He smells and just does not care about himself. I am tired of being in relationships. All this man wants is my sex and my money. After a whole year of being in this, I am tired of him and just ready to leave with my kids and be single again because I just know sooner or later he will cheat to prove a point—that he has to be taken care of and I wasn’t doing it. That, to me, is a selfish man who only cares about him and his own needs and to hell with the woman. All I am supposed to do is be his whore, maid, and slave.
