I have known my girlfriend for a year. We met online; we started out just as chat buddies, then after four or six months of online talking, we started talking on the phone. It still was not serious, but this past June we decided to take things further and become girlfriends. Now almost a month later, she is already planning a life together—moving in together, then eventually getting married.
I am going along with everything, although this is very new to me. I have not dated any other women since coming out, and she is making sure I don’t, either. I love her very much, but we have been kind of having spats lately. She doesn’t think I love her or care to be with her, and she feels like I am not fighting for us to be together when we fight.
We have not met each other yet, but I am planning on seeing her in a few months. It is starting to get to me a little; she gets very upset if I go a day without talking to her and I try to explain that I am not doing anything; I just get busy sometimes. She says that when we see each other, she won’t act like this because she will know how much I love her, and she also says that when we decide to live together, she won’t be really jealous and get worked up easily. I do believe her, but things are going really fast for me and she says that we are not going fast enough by not living together now. It is barely past a month.
I do get nervous of her intentions sometimes. By us going at it every other day, she says I am insensitive, uncaring, and don’t care about her since I don’t get jealous when other women hit on her. It’s always something. I am also busy with school, which makes it harder.
I don’t know how long things will last, but I am starting to feel overwhelmed by her constant need for attention and affection. It’s hard to do by phone or chatting online, which makes things worse sometimes. I already told her I loved her, and I’m starting to wonder if it was too soon. We break up ever other day, but make up the same day. This may be my last long distance relationship. She is not abusive, I don’t think, but the over protectiveness is overbearing. She doesn’t want anyone to take me away before we have the chance to meet in person. Hopefully, it don’t get worse. We shall see.
