I was dating this guy who at first randomly bumped into me at a lounge, later coming up to me and introducing himself. I was instantly hooked as we found all these similarities, from where we grew up to our love for the busy cities. I was instantly glowing that night after meeting him, so happy and having those butterflies all over again. I knew that he would have to pass my test. If he can hold up a conversation, be a gentleman, and to get the approval of the tribunal, a.k.a. my friends.
After talking and texting with him back and forth for a week we could not stop talking to each other, and were instantly glued to our phones. I was head over heels about him and only after seeing him the first time. The week after we met he came out to meet my friends the tribunal and easily won them over. I was surprised to see the joyous faces on my friends as he could hold up a conversation and easily hang out with them without an awkward moments. He also was asking if the girls were okay and if they wanted anything to drink, very attentive in the gentleman way.
Before I knew it we had our first date at a nice restaurant, it was amazing to have a guy who can sweep me off my feet and to be so attentive. I knew I was starting to have feelings for him as his smile and his stories would turn me into a little girl. All of a sudden it felt like a blur but there was nothing that didn’t seem “perfect” about him. (The reason that I say “perfect” in quotation marks, I’ll tell you why.)
To be honest I knew I fell into this, “Wow, he is attentive, caring, stable, focused, and most importantly cute” phase. Because before I knew it he fell into my two MONTH RULE, just like clockwork he came out of his shell. He was confusing, mysterious, and closed off. Even though he wasn’t transforming into Jekyll I knew he was showing the side to him that he was not comfortable to ... until now.
At that time I knew I loved him but it took a lot of will power and focus for me to shake myself out of this dream. I realized that I am not comfortable with this person and that I am not going to take a guy who is giving me the third degree about not calling him back in a span of a few hours while I was busy. I realized that I fell in love with him for how nice he looked and portrayed on the outside and what I thought in the inside. But I knew that I could not fall in love with him with how he was now. It was for me to decide that besides all the shiny things he could not provide me to bring a smile to my face. But he could not bring me a smile when those things were taken away. I knew I had a standard and was not going to forgive myself for his big flaws. In the end I realized he was not right for me, and sadly I had to let him go and that’s how I fell out of love with him ...
