Is it ever possible to really find that one person that you were meant to be with? I thought that I had found him, we had two children together, but something just never seemed right. Maybe it’s me; I don’t know. I won’t go into a lot of personal details, but let’s just say he wasn’t the nicest person to be around. He had something bad to say about almost everyone. What makes a person that way? Oh, sure there were those times when he promised he would be different, be nicer, but that only lasted a few days. I just want that person who values respect and love and trust. Someone that doesn’t put other people down and actually enjoys being around other people. I’m pretty outgoing and friendly. I try to see the best in everyone. I love to take my kids to the park, the movies, the water park near our home, things like that. If he were still around though I don’t think we would be able to do those things as much as we do now.
I’m starting to fear that I’m never going to find that right person for me. I’m quirky; I know that. I’m a big nerd. I love to read, knit, and sew. I work in the yard and I love doing activities with my kids. Even it’s just getting in the floor with them to play. I want a family who enjoys doing things together. I still hold out hope that I will have that someday, but sometimes it’s so hard. I’ve been through so much. I want my kids to see that a family can be happy. They didn’t have that when their dad and I were together. We argued all the time. They need to see two people really and honestly love each other. That weak-in-the-knees love. That’s what I want. I love my kids more than life, but sometimes I just get lonely for someone to talk to. I’m sure all of you want to read all of my sap, haha. This just seems like a place that I can say things that I’ve never really expressed before. I’m holding out hope that I am going to find that love sooner or later. Hoping for the sooner. I welcome all comments to my articles and actually love to read them. It’s nice to know that there are others out there dealing with similar situations.
All I can do is keep praying. And that’s one thing I do everyday. Other than my kids, the Lord is what keeps me going. I know this and I love Him for it. Maybe I’m just being sentimental or even crazy, but I believe that there is hope waiting around every corner. If I didn’t believe that, I hate to think of where I might be right now. Well, I will get of off my soapbox now and get back to my life of proud mommy. Take care and God bless!
