Have you been in a relationship that has changed your world? The answer is yes. I think we all have at one time or another. You meet, you fall in love, or you pass lives and they are not another thought. You date, you move forward, or you break up. Hopefully there is a happily ever after and if you are at the break up hopefully it was mutual and without turmoil.
I was reading in DivineCaroline and it asked that question. Have you ever been in a relationship that changed your world or your life? My mind and heart screamed, “YES!” And his name is _______. I’m not going to call him by his real name because it just wouldn’t be cool. We’ll just call him Jax.
I met Jax online. I wasn’t looking to meet anyone. I talked to his friend whom then sent him to me saying, “The two of you will hit it off.” I agreed but after getting his friend request and accepting I passed him off to my friend. I wasn’t in the mood to entertain anyone.
He then forged a friendship with one of my good friends. She passed along little tidbits of him that she learned. More and more he actually was someone I was interested in talking to. I decided to strike up a conversation with him. We reciprocated messages and emails, sometimes too many to recall. I could have been in the worst of moods or busy and yet the sight of his email address in my in box was all it took. The content could have been a mere hello and nothing else and it still made me smile like a kid at Christmas. Just knowing I crossed his mind made my day.
Let me tell you a little bit about Jax. He is stunning. Easy on the eyes is a sure understatement. When he smiled he lit up the room. He wasn’t one to scare you away just by being in your presence. Jax never exuded that “I’m too good for anyone” attitude. He was true and genuine to everyone around him. He most definitely wasn’t afraid to be himself and I adored him for it. There are not enough adjectives to describe him. I was in awe of him.
After knowing Jax for a little over three months we felt the need to confirm all the feelings that were building. I could have easily said I loved him after knowing him for weeks but didn’t for fear of scaring him away. I felt that he felt it to but, you just can’t assume anything. Especially when life hasn’t been all it’s cracked up to be up to that point.
We met in the hotel lobby near my employer. I remember so many details but long of the short of it. He stood up from a lounge couch in front of the fireplace and in one fell swoop my heart jumped out of my chest. He was every bit as beautiful in person and more. The fire blazing in the fireplace made him look so warm and inviting. And he was. I was filled with nervous excitement. A million thoughts filled my head. Will he like me after meeting me? Will he think he made a mistake? What’s going to happen now? All those thoughts faded when he walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me. I could have stayed in that exact place for the rest of my life. I had never felt so safe and warm and loved before. We had only spent two partial days together and I knew then that I’d love him forever.
Then he left. He got on a plane and flew back home. He left me with all kinds of self-doubt and uncertainty. All those negative feelings surrounded me right up to the point that he wrote a poem. He wrote a poem about me, about us. About meeting me and how he felt. I loved him. I loved him as much as I was allowed to love someone so wonderful.
