Simply Red said it best when he said, “I’ll keep holding on, I’ll keep holding, I’ll keep holding ooonnn.” You get the picture—you and he no longer speak to each other, he doesn’t call to see how you are doing, ask you how you are feeling, doesn’t send you messeges, text, chat, hell not even by pigeon does he show you that he still cares about you. He no longer looks into your eyes anymore (well, he rarely did that when you were together) but still, you were together. Now he has turned his attention to other things and people and you are no longer a part of his life.
Yet still, even though he is not the world’s most perfect person and has done some really crazy things (and so have you), it’s still hard to let go. So you do what? Do you do the Simply Red thing and keep hoping that things will change or somehow magically be different? Or do you just simply accept what the other party has been telling you in so many words all along: “Honey, he no longer wants to be intimate with you.” So many people tell you to just leave him alone and you know that if he’s made up his mind that there is nothing more you can do. Well if he no longer cares, then why does he still continue to communicate on some levels? Does that have anything to do with his feelings for you or is there some other “ulterior motives”?
All I know is that I’ve waited for my prince to come back to me, but he hasn’t.
But was he really all that I made him out to be? It’s true that love is a drug; it really can cloud your vision and make you see what you want to see, because if I analyze the situation, I’m sure I would see all kinds of red flag warnings that I just chose to ignore. But my love for him blinded me to all of that. Even when it was obvious how much he just used me because he knew I still cared for him. But I really do wish him all the best with his life and whoever he is now sharing it with. Well I guess I just answered my own question, huh? I guess it’s time for me to get on with my life the same way he has already done.
