… with my bowed head and drooping shoulders, you can sense my needs and burden. The awkward gait and limping steps, the stutter in my speech. The furrowed brow and fogging eyes—all these they tell you that my burden is growing heavier each day. How I long to have your arms wrap around my shoulders. You became so distant and I feel it inside and I cannot deny the feeling of rejection. Now I won’t ask anything more … all I want is for you to let hold of my hands— algid & pail through so much wrong and pain, help me put my fears aside for I am as afraid as anyone could ever be … afraid of losing you. My emptiness is as deep as a well, my craving and pain is strong like a thunder in a storm. To love and be loved, to need and be needed, to offer and be accepted but the wormwood of rejection is as bitter as betrayal.
Now finally, please forgive me for the burden I caused you, the burden of getting into your life, the burden loving you and caring for you—for tomorrow I will never be yours and you will never be mine … soon we will be on our own separate ways and all that we shared left us bitter-sweet memories of moments borrowed.
This may be my last goodbye but this is not the end of my loving you …
