I feel like there is only one way out of this marriage. The only way is for me to cheat on him and then tell him about it after the affair is over.
I think that he would grit his teeth together and get up and walk away. He would then explode. Not knowing what his reaction would be is very scary. Terrifying.
He would hate me. But would he respect my ideas about splitting up? Would he respect my position as a parent—that a happy mother is a happier parent, thus happier children? My children would really have the best of me because I would be so much happier with myself.
Would he try to take them away from me? Where would I live? Would I move or would he? If I cheated, I bet he’d want me to move. But then, I work at home, so maybe he would let me have the house if I could afford to pay for it. NOT. I think we should cohabitate.
Get an apartment with two bedrooms. One for each of us. When we want/need to spend time with the children or me, work at home, we stay at the house with the kids. When parenting time overlaps, the other parent goes to the apartment.
Like weeknights he could spend half at the house with the kids then on those I stay at apartment, and tag in with my home-work and daytime stuff while the kids are at school. Then when he gets home from work we can either have a family dinner, but then after dinner, one of us goes our separate way for the evening, one stays with the kids.
We’d share a bedroom like we do now at the house with the kids, so it might be hard to be respectful of the other’s stuff, but it’s doable.
Now, if I could only find someone who is willing to have the affair and set the whole thing in motion.
