We are not in a perfect world.
How many times did you lie to yourself?
How many times did you lie to your friends/lovers/husbands/wives?
Research shows that an average 65 percent of people lie.
Mostly what we call white lies.
But what is your definition of white lies?
If I tell you that my name is not Sugi Sakamoto,
If I tell you that I am not really a foreigner,
If I tell you that I am not resident in MT,
Then,
Yes, I would be lying to you, to you all.
However,
We all are doing it.
We are using the name of:
“Respect your privacy”
“I don’t want to hurt your feelings”
“It’s just not a big deal, what are you talking about”
Are you lying to yourself,
Or, am I lying to you?
I am not sure I am lying to myself right now,
Or B is lying to both of us.
B and I had a great month together.
Yes, we had.
I am not sure what we are now.
It was few days ago,
B sent me an email and tried to explain to me that this is not the right thing,
And this affair is not going anywhere.
I know, I knew, from the beginning.
B didn’t need to remind me the mistake I am making right now.
We both are lying to each other.
We both know the physical attraction is greater than anything,
Too great that we just cannot resist from the force.
But, is this it?
Just the physical, right?
B stopped by my place without notice yesterday,
Brought me chocolates from the Easter Bunny, as he called it.
It was the sweetest thing someone did for me for a long time.
Bring me the chocolates from the bunny, like I am a little girl.
We are so lying to each other right now.
I am lying to myself that this is just friends with “benefits”
I know it is not.
I think I might be in love with him.
B was lying to himself.
He knew it is not just the physical.
I think he wants me more than he wanted.
This makes me really sad, at this Easter Sunday,
Supposed to be the day with your friends, lovers, families, and whoever you care about?
Are you lying to yourself now?
Are you telling the whole truth?
