It’s my ex-boyfriend’s birthday today. It’s weird how things change—one year ago he was the center of my world. In fact, for the last eight years he was the center of my world … and today I can’t even wish him a happy birthday. It’s like people dying—they just vanish all of the sudden, and you are supposed to create a whole new world without that person. You don’t know what happens to the person, but the people who are left behind start creating a world as if that person never existed … and soon they succeed. Physical presence is so important, you can be everything for a person, but after just one month living in a different place, and you can be reduced to one of the Facebook friends who wished you happy birthday.
My mother died when I was young. She was very close to me, she sacrificed everything so that I can be what I am today. Now I barely remember her. Months pass without me even realizing that she doesn’t exist anymore. I feel so bad about the fact that I have so completely created a world without her, but that’s how it is.
