To begin with I never imagined that I would never have the courage to speak on this situation but here I am and I pray that I will be able to help at least one person or more. I am 36 years old and am still going through it physically and mentally on a daily basis. I was adopted at the age of 6 the first two years were fine then when I turned 8 years old that’s when it all began.
I had asked my adopted dad for a backrub. That was the mistake right there. I remember to this day how he began to play with my private parts he started doing it on a regular basis in the house, the barn, in the woods, in the car all the way to town and back home. To top it off he then would finish molesting me then turn right around and go have sex with his wife. There were times on vacation that I’d have to cover my head and be as quiet as I could while they were having sex in the same room. There were a few times that I’d hear her come up the steps I’d holler out stop he put his hand over my mouth and said that if I ever told a soul he’d kill me.
He had me so scared that I kept my mouth shut while he did this repeatedly night after night from the age of 8 to the age of 14 finally I couldn’t take it anymore so I said something to a girl in school needless to say when my adopted mom found out they shipped me to another place where the councilors believed them and came out and called me a liar. I have been raped by 3 different guys and my first husband raped me I have been molested, raped, beat, you name it.
It makes relationships very difficult because of what I have been through with these men who took away my innocence when I was just a little girl and these men who took my rights away by raping me. I have nights where the dreams are so real. The nightmares that I wake myself up screaming in the middle of the night. It is real and so hard to go through all the time at least I do know that I am a survivor just like you are.
I pray what I said helps in at least any kind of way if you can email me we will get through this together. I am a wonderful listener.
