First I am so blessed to have found this site. It brought tears to my eyes to have strangers tell me I did the right thing. Confusion comes with the mental and verbal abuse. I know I did the right thing for my children and myself, but I do love him so that gets hard. I am stronger now and I know as time goes by I will get even stronger. He begs me to go to his apartment, and tells me he is sorry and I am his whole world. That is what makes it hard.
I don’t know if I should cut the strings totally or try and be friends. Part of me says I need to cut the strings totally he wont change, but part doesn’t want to let go. His son is still with me until this weekend because now he can afford to take him. (Read my forum in relationships, that explains this part.)
