That’s right. I wish I were the tin man. I wouldn’t feel so empty inside. I wouldn’t feel so sad. My heart wouldn’t be in denial.
We met two years ago in an unconventional way (internet). It’s not the typical relationship. We started off just texting, emailing, and IMing. To him it was just that. He even told me once “what, you think we would get married.”
I carried on a relationship, what I thought, with this man in hopes he would come around. Well not for long. Last summer I decided it was no hope. I blocked him and accepted we were just text friends. Then one hot day in August, he starts communicating with me in ways I hoped for. However, I didn’t “fall” for it. Then right after the first leaf fell off the tree, he said, he was going to miss me on his trip to Jamaica and asked if he could call. I said yes. I let my guard down and let him back in.
On October 8, 2009, he told me he loved me. I was like what. I have loved this man for almost two years and he says what I have been longing to hear. Then this world-wind of romance just took over for the next two months.
The romance didn’t last. I was not coping well with things not related to us so I took it out on him. He was there. He would send me e-cards, call me … and I treated him like crap. When we spent the New Year together, he mentioned that we are oil and water and we should just be friends.
