For the past couple of days, I have been keeping my mouth closed when around my significant other. We have been off and on again for four years. With this month making a complete year that we have been living together without me kicking him out. It’s been a really rough year for him. The death of both his parents within a week’s time. Two surgeries in a year. So, I’ve taken all of that into consideration. But, as long as I have known him, it has always been me being the one to come through for him financially. He hasn’t worked since the fall after we met. Since he has been in this household the past year he has only given me $100. He has a warm bed to sleep in every night. Food in his stomach. A phone to use. Toothpaste, toilet paper, body soap, lotion and the whole nine yards. Car rides whenever he needs it. Even cash, if I have anything left to give him. Let’s just say that he gets at least $50 bucks a month from me, cash.
I’m a Christian. Drawing closer and closer to God every day. I pray to God for direction when it comes to this man. I love him. I’m in love with him. He has a good heart. I believe that if he had more, he would give more. But, when will that happen. I’m currently feeling very much taken advantage of. I’m trying to figure out when and where do I draw the line.
He wants to move south. But, do I dare pack my bags and my kids to make such a great move when he hasn’t shown me any type of responsibility as a man who can care for a himself, let alone a family. I’m trying very hard to keep faith. I know that my timing is not God’s timing.
I’ve also seen this man be somewhat manipulative to other people and yes, me. He’s lied to me on several occasions and even stole money out of my wallet. Why or why am I still with this man. Yes, I have forgiven him. Because God said to forgive. But, my concern is who’s to say it won’t happen again.
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