Tuesday, September 22, 2009
End of Week 4
To My Good Health & Exercise!
Another 1 1/2 pounds lost! This now marks the end of my 4th week of dieting and exercising, and though I am not ready to throw in the towel, I feel as if I am suddenly pushing against an unmovable brick wall! It is definitely slow going, a little discouraging, I will admit. The days painfully drag on; the hours pass inconceivably slow, and I find myself salivating with constant thoughts of food. If I were to give myself paper cuts every day, pouring fresh lemon juice over the raw wounds, it still wouldn’t hurt as bad. The desire for food is sometimes excruciating!
Urgh! Scream! Whew! I take a couple of deep breaths, a heavy sigh, shed a tear or two and then I calm.
I go to bed and have a hard time falling asleep, wishing I could have a hamburger loaded with all the fixings, a chili dog nestled in a soft bun, brimming with mayonnaise and mustard, a ham sandwich on a Dutch Crunch roll with absolutely everything. And I’ve been dreaming of food again; I walk into a room to see a long table filled with platters of everything I know I wish to eat (but shouldn’t). Every night I go to bed with the desire to eat and taste. I tell myself, tomorrow I will have it…just one sandwich…one burger…one hot dog…one bowl of rice…and then I can starve the rest of the day! But I don’t. I know I won’t. I can’t because I know that that will defeat the whole purpose of why I began this in the first place; for my health. And so I make it through another day, and count my blessings.
Having a family that I still cook for (that I am still faithfully taking care of) – one finishing college, another looking for a full-time job (grandchildren that often visit!) – it makes it very difficult to pass up food. I am learning, however, to eat less. And God help me, we are celebrating a wedding in four months, family will be coming out of town, friends are joining in on wedding plans – more reasons to cook and look at food displayed before me. Woof!
Do you know that I actually dream in color? Yes, I do! In truth, in my dreams I smell and taste food, and I find bliss. Isn’t that something? I guess, for now, I am happiest dreaming, since in my dreams I can have anything and all I want to eat.
As the saying goes “one day at a time,” but I say “one meal at a time!” I am surviving the lonely hours of one-meal-at-time into one-day-at-a-time. 92 pounds to lose – I have a long, long way until I walk through the other side.
My updated numbers for this past week:
Weigh-in 217.4 (a loss of 8.2 total pounds since Tuesday, 08/25/09)
Calories 12,035 = 1,719 calories per day
Carbohydrates 953 = 136 grams per day
Protein 527 = 75 grams per day
Fat 513 = 73 grams per day
Calories burned 3,273
Cals after wrkts 8,762
Workouts 4 hours 12 minutes total
Aerobics 2 hours and 30 minutes
Weight training 1 hour 3 min
Street hiking 39 minutes
Week One: Weight 225.6 Body Fat 91.7 Body Fat% 40.7 Body Water% 43.2 Bone Mass 6%
End of Week Four: Weight 217.4 Body Fat 87.1 Body Fat% 39.9 Body Water% 43.8 BM 5.9%
NOTE: Just too much going in this last past week that I was not able to get in the workout time I had hoped for. But, oh-well, I’m still hanging in there.
