A Childhood Lost

Within by heart,

Within my soul,

Your sordid actions

Took their toll.


I built my walls.

I closed my doors.

You took from me,

What wasn’t yours.


Upon myself,

I placed the blame.

I led a life,

You filled with shame.


I thought for sure,

I must have sinned.

I buried it all

Deep within.


A childhood lost,

To all the pain,

You placed on me

For your own gain.


There was less laughter.

I hardly cried.

I tried to forget.

I felt, I died.


I kept your secret.

I never told.

But then again,

I was five years old.


Though, the years

Have passed me by,

What you have done,

I no longer deny.


The time has come.

I, now, can see,

To let my heart

And soul be free.


Upon you now,

I place this blame.

It is not I,

Who bears this shame.


Before the Lord,

Will come your day,

For all your sins,

You’ll have to pay.


It is my childhood,

I must reclaim.

My life can never

Remain the same.


Now I see,

All you have done.

My life’s healing

Has just begun.


Though my journey,

May be long and rough,

Because of you,

I am now tough.


Tear down my walls

And open my doors.

The power is mine.

It no longer is yours.


Into my heart,

Love can now flow,

As pure as it should be,

As pure as the snow.


Where there was once darkness,

There is now light.

My life is changing,

To my hearts delight.


For once in my life,

I feel whole.

I can love with my heart.

I’ve reclaimed my soul.

 

 

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Thank you for sharing such a healing and uplifting poem about something so henious. Praise God for your insight and caring.
05.25.2007
Sweet Latina
I read your poem....I must say...it's very deep and so vivid......never thought in a million years this would ever happen to someone I know...this hit close to home and all I do is cry every night....how blinded I was....how as adults, we can be....if I only had my eyes open. If you dont mind...I would like to put it up on my page......people need to be aware....its very very important!!!!!!
Lucy, you are an incredibly strong woman who has survived one of the most difficult trauma's known to human kind. I am impressed with your strength, your insight, and your courage to heal. You're message is a powerful one. You are right, this was NOT your fault. Good for you to begin internalizing this and reclaiming what is rightfully yours. You have a creative and poetic voice. Thank you for sharing it with us. You truly are a SURVIVOR. Like Kate and Rebecca, I am certain your words will help many other women who are struggling with rape crisis and recovery. It has been a true honor to read your work. You are an inspiration to many. Take Good Care, Dr. Tonja H. Krautter
05.23.2007
Rebecca Brown
As Kate said below, I read your poem 4 or 5 times because it was so powerful. It's so brave of you to share this and really put yourself out there, but I feel sure that you sharing what you've been through will help others. Thank you so much.
05.22.2007
Kate Thorp
Lucy, what powerful words. I read your profile page too. You are a survivor and strong. I can only imagine how many others you will be able to help by having the strength to share your journey. I have read your poem 3 times now. It really moved me. Please stay strong.
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