I just read an old post of mine and it gave me chills. I didn’t recognize the style of writing as mine and realized God wrote it; He just used my hands to get it on here for people to see.
(See post here.) It’s been a tough year. Having an extra house payment has made things pretty difficult. But as I said in that older post, God always came through. We’ve paid the bills that we shouldn’t have been able to. Granted, honestly, most of them are being paid up to thirty days late, but they are still being paid. Superman’s latest freelance Web project gave us a little wiggle room, but until the other house sells we’ll always end up back in the same situation. Which is me worrying about paying something and God showing up and taking care of it for us.
Wow, my faith has grown. Maybe that was the whole point of the last year. I’ve finally learned that I believe He will sustain us when the budget doesn’t work. If I can believe that, if I can believe in Him enough to give my life to Him, if I could feel His spirit in my body as I came up out of the water of baptism, if I believe enough to pray for our needs and for others ... why has it taken me so long to believe He would deliver us from a yucky financial/house situation?
In that older post, I mentioned that what if God was just waiting for us to ask. We had stopped asking about selling the house, we were just concerned about staying afloat. I remember Superman’s quote from the other post. “We don’t serve a God that beats around the bush, we serve the God that burnt the bush so he could speak to us directly.”
He wants us to come to Him.
We went. We want the house out of our hands by the end of June.
When I wrote that other post, we were struggling with faith. We believed so many things, but I still also believed it would be next to impossible to be rid of the house by the end of June.
All of this preaching to say that we are waiting to hear back from our renters. The wife works at a bank. She has a friend in mortgage lending that is doing them a favor, trying to get them the loan.
It’s almost June.
Did I want to break down and cry happy, joyful, praise-filled tears when I heard that info? You betcha. You realize that if this works out, we will close in June, just as we asked God for.
Before learning true faith, and I’m sure there’s so much more for me to learn, I would’ve asked you all to start praying. But I’m not going to do that.
God already knows our desires; He knows we asked for June, we’ve taken that straight to Him. We know He can do anything.
No matter how much prayerful begging goes on, God’s Will will always be done. And if we don’t get the chance to close on the house in June, then we believe that He will do it in His timing.
