When I was lost in sin, confused, and ready to end my life, I called out in desperation, “Oh, my God, I am so sorry, can you ever forgive me?”
A voice called out to me and said, “Brenda, why are you doing this? Don’t you know that I love you? You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and I love you.”
I thought that it was Jehovah God who spoke to me, so I went to the Kingdom hall. I fell on my knees crying and confessing my sins, and when I saw that they were all just staring at me, I asked them, “Will Jehovah forgive me?” They said, “We don’t know.”
I had been a Jehovah’s Witness all my life and believed that they were the, “truth”, my father always told me, “You are in the truth.”
Even though that first day back to the Kingdom Hall did not go very well, I knew God had spoken to me, and he told me that he loves me, so I was determined to return, and take my stand for Jehovah.
Sunday morning I drove to the “Kingdom Hall,” however when I got to the street, I could not turn in! I decided to return home.
On my way home I turned the car radio on, and a woman preacher said, “God loves you and he is going to show you the way.” I thought to myself, that is what the voice said to me. When I got home, my husband was watching Rex Humbard on TV and I heard him say, “God loves you.”
OK, who is God?
I was confused, crying, and crazy, after all, when you hear voices, you are crazy, aren’t you?
So I went for mental counseling. All I wanted to know is, who is God?
I got up early every morning and cried. I watched and listened to every religIous progran on radio and TV that I could find, they talked about God, but did not tell me, who is God?
By this time I had made up my mind that, “Jehovah” of the “Jehovah’s Witnesses”, was not the God who had spoken to me, but who is God?
I bought a “King James” copy of the “Holy Bible” and I got up early every morning, sat in my rocking chair, read, and cried. I wanted to find out who is God.
