You might ask at this point how does one go about changing gears and asking for directions when the pattern of life has been to either a) be in nothing but utter self perceived control or b) be in nothing but utter lack of self perceived control?
Once I realized God had the wheel and didn’t have the energy to wrestle it back into my own hands, I sat back for the ride. I saw things occur that I had thought only I could make occur. If I could not make them occur then I thought they were not meant to happen in the first place. God make a lot of things happen that are virtually impossible for us to make happen left to our own devices.
Now don’t misunderstand. God having the wheel did not take me to the nearest five star hotel where I was receiving massages and pedicures all day while I ate bon bons and drank champagne. God took the wheel and put me where He knew I needed to be. He navigated me through some of the most difficult months ahead that I had faced in my life. He remains with me as I live this life. He’ll remain with me when I leave this life.
This is not to take away from the endurance of well over a decade’s worth of abusive subjection living with a very broken man. This is to say that for the first time I had to face me, my issues, my problems and my addiction to control among other things. I had to face my fears, wrong doings and limitations. I also had to heal, recover and regain my strength emotionally and physically. All the while, my spirituality was blossoming. I knew as I was escorted via county sheriff protection to a local shelter that God had me and my children well in hand. I knew it. I felt it. I heard it. I saw it. I could smell it. Sounds crazy to some I’m sure. To others they know precisely what I am talking about. I found God and I was drawing nearer to Him with each passing day.
As with everything in a person’s life, you begin with baby steps. You are born onto this earth with a need to be cared for. You are born onto this earth with a need to be guided. You are born onto this earth with a need to be taught. You are born onto this earth with a need to love. You are born onto this earth with a need to fulfill a purpose. These aspects apply emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. Some components are innate and we learn quickly reaching full stride in no time. Other things take practice and time sees progress in ability. We may fall, we may toddle again and eventually we find our bearings and gain our strength and go forward. As we get better at one facet we’ll be given our next task to learn and stretch our feelings, our thoughts, our bodies, our minds and our souls.
I rely heavily on God now. I still try to push my weight around. I still try to dominate my destiny. I am not ignoring Signs anymore nor am I falling on the will of others. I still struggle with identifying my will or God’s will. I still become impatient with time lines and God’s time. I am not ignoring Signs anymore nor am I falling into the trap of self-reliance and willfulness so much so that I find myself driving downhill into a pit of chaos and insanity. I ask God a lot of questions. I get a lot of answers. I like and appreciate some of the answers. Some of the answers I don’t like so much. I’m as a child really. Sometimes I try to be too grown for my britches when it comes to spiritual matters. God’ll teach me as the Faithful Parent He is. I trust that and I believe in that!!
Let God do the driving and the navigating when you are behind the wheel. The gears will change easily when He’s left to do His job. Sit back, enjoy the scenery He will lead you to some very remarkable places and bring some very remarkable events into your life, none like you would ever imagine or gain in your own doing.
For nothing is impossible with God
Luke 1:37
Directions to change gears by and lessons on how to ask directions
Make an oath to release the steering wheel and trust God’s ability.
Now when people take an oath, they call on someone greater than themselves to hold them to it. And without any question that oath is binding. God also found himself with an oath, so that those who received the promise could be perfectly sure that he would never change his mind.
Hebrews 6:16 – 17
Take the rose-colored glasses off and see clearly.
But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord – who is the Spirit – makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.
2 Corinthians 3:16 – 18
Ask for guidance with humbleness of being, sincerity of mind and a genuine heart.
Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers. . .
