Life is like a puzzle—we all are looking for the missing piece of the puzzle. God created each one of us with a void in our hearts which the ways of the world can never fill—only the Creator that created the void in our hearts can fill that void. My story (Dreams of Hope’s Journey)—began June and July of 1977, two months before I found the missing piece of the puzzle of life.
Our Creator can speak to us through dreams, people, and circumstances in life. My journey began with two dreams—one in June and then the other in July of 1977. These two dreams were so profound that I found myself in a battle within myself that confounded me each day as I continued to strive to find and know the truth of the missing piece in my life. I have had many dreams in my life—but never like these dreams—that was so profound—that made my heart pound with an urgency to find the answer quickly to the mystery of life’s missing puzzle piece.
My first dream in June, 1977, I dreamed I was in total darkness and the darkness consumed me to the point of fright and then all of a sudden in my dream a flame of fire started to encircle me as a ring of fire. In the dream I remember feeling lost and overwhelmed with the feeling of total separation from my Creator. The thought was so intense that I could hardly bear the pain of separation which I knew would be for eternity. I saw myself in the dream being surrounded by these flames of fires as they came up from a bottomless pit and the flames were shooting upward and I could see no end of the flames. As I watched myself I was trying to shield myself from the flames and I was so terrified of being consumed by the flames of fire—so I kneeled down and kept covering myself with my arms trying to protect myself from the flames of fire that was coming quickly towards me as to consume me totally. Then all of a sudden, I found myself awake from the dream trembling and sweating and hardly able to breathe from the fright of this dream. That dream haunted me throughout that month of June and I wondered each day what the meaning of that terrifying dream was.
Then in the month of July—I had another dream of fire. But the feelings were quite opposite - it started out about the same regarding the flames coming towards me as to consume my whole body. In the dream I saw myself just raise my arms upward as if saying “I surrender.” I stood with no fear of the darkness, the eternal separation feelings, the fear of the consuming fire flames. I stood there watching myself in total peace and surrendering to a greater force than I - and then suddenly as I stood with my arms raised up. The flames of fire consumed by whole body and I watched the flames of fire as they encircled around my arms which I had lifted up towards the sky. And then suddenly I woke up from my dream and amazingly I had such peace—but still wondered what these dreams meant.
Then one month later in August, 1977, I was having a stressful day due to the last two months of a battle going inside of me. I felt an urgency to know why, what, I am searching for in my life. That day I was leaving work and a co-worker was leaving at the same time to her car in the parking lot (it was her last day at work) because she was moving to another state where she found another job. Things work in mysterious ways - she saw me crying and asked “Are you alright - Do you need someone to talk to” and I said I’m okay because I was embarrassed that she saw me crying and all of a sudden she asked, “Can I pray for you?” She said God is the answer to all our problems in life and without God in our lives we will always feel like we are missing something always in our lives because God created us with a void in our hearts which only God can fill. I stood there in amazement of what she said. It was so profound of what I have been searching for—she prayed with me and left me her bible and she said I sense you have un-forgiveness in your heart.
