Yes, I used to be a HUGE overachiever when it came to school. A “B” wasn’t that great, but okay I guess on an exam. On the report card? Never, unacceptable.
Nursing school comes, and disappointment reigns. An unacceptable report card “B” has now turned into, whatever, I’ll be pissed if I get a “C” because that’s not good, but hey as long as I pass the N-CLEX. School is hard—very hard. A “B” would be GREAT now. I would love to get a B, since an A is out of reach for me this semester. Maybe in one class ... maybe—but doubtful. Is this bad? Am I lazy? NO! I can’t be lazy! I cannot be considered to be an underachiever. I just have stuff going on in my life right now, and I’m learning what’s important, I’m learning how to deal emotionally with my problems and with my nursing practices. A little grade isn’t that important. The passing the N-CLEX issue is. Plus, I’m going to study with an N-CLEX study guide from like Borders or something. That should rock. This summer that’s what I’ll do. And try to work.
Do I sound stupid? Please tell me I’m on the right track. This school business sucks. I’m sick of stupid research papers, and exams, and teachers telling you to “STEP UP!” when you feel much better than they are in dealing with patients, especially babies. I’m not out of line, I’m seeing what’s really important.
Not valedictorian, not scholarships, but doing what you love, and getting there. That’s what I’m going to do. Thanks for listening.
