Have you ever felt uncomfortable with you body or face? I have to be honest I’m no beauty queen. Throughout my life since I was eleven, I suffered from acne and up to date I still do but only like one or two zits. I wasn’t really comfortable with my face at all I thought that I was ugly because I was never part of the popular girls in school and the popular girls were the ones who always got the cute guys and everything.
Then as years went on I got a lot of acne in my face and I was feeling depressed for some strange reason and I also gained a lot of weight. At that point I felt helpless because all my friends had clear skin and I felt like the ugly duckling and that I will always be one. Then I started to do exercises for two hours straight and I went started to use acne creams and finally summer vacation arrived and I dropped from a size five to a size three and that was a shocker and my face got cleared up. Soon I realized that I pay more attention to beauty and that was all I cared about. But this change was good in some way people that hated me because of my appearance started to be nice to me but I wasn’t nice to them. This change also made me have a bad side which I’m trying to get rid of because deep inside I want to be the sweet girl I was, but I believe that she has died long time ago and will never come back.
Every time I look into the mirror and I look deep enough and see the other girl I used to be and I notice I still don’t know who I am. When will my reflection show? I always ask myself that question. I changed a lot because maybe in the inside I got tired of being nice. I always had someone making fun of me. Those memories are terrible maybe that’s why I will never go back into being the sweet girl I was.
