Letting go is something women are entirely too familiar with. Whether it’s letting go of something we value, something we love, or even something as simple as letting go of our past. But not everything is as simple as it seems.
In my case, I am dealing with letting go of my past. This should just be a piece of cake, after all it is the past for a reason, right? I am the happiest now than I think I have ever been; I’m in love (with someone who actually loves me back, may I add), I’m getting along and spending a lot of time with my family, I’ve recently decided that I want to really get back into church and start living a different and better kind of life, and have been taking the right steps toward doing so. But, to make a better life for myself requires letting go and getting rid of some extra baggage that I’ve been carrying around for quite some time now. These changes aren’t so simple; in fact over the last few months, they have proven to be quite a task. But I have been trying and that’s what matters most.
I never wanted to be the kind of person who carries her past battles and struggles with her into the present, but that’s not necessarily something you can always avoid. When you have a past such as mine, letting go can be one of the biggest obstacles one might ever face. When you’ve been hurt in so many different ways over the years, you begin to find it harder to trust, harder to let go. You begin to let your silly emotions and insecurities run away with you, and you find yourself slowly creating a monster in something that is perfectly fine and safe.
Why is it that we as women have such a hard time with this? Why can’t we just let the past be the past and leave it at that? It’s something that I continually ask myself every day. And it’s something that I don’t really think anyone knows the answer to. But something we do have control over is how to manage these emotions and insecurities and how to learn to not let them control our lives. We are strong and can do anything we set our minds too!
