Why do we turn to music when we experience different emotions? We turn to music when we celebrate. We turn to music when we want to relax and unwind after a long day. Music will also get you in the mood when you’re trying to seduce someone (or have sex). It also helps you get through a breakup with a significant other, but then again it can help you get back together, too.
Music has a powerful way guiding our emotions to either pump us up or mellow you out. It can also be used to inspire and instill hope. Music can also been used as a special language to communicate when you can’t find the right words to fully express your feelings. Music has always been a way for me to express myself whenever I’m feeling blessed, joyful, or when I’ve been hurt, or broken-hearted, music always has a certain way of bringing out emotions that I don’t think can be expressed any other way.
I am an artist; I’ve been writing poetry since I was thirteen or fourteen years old. The musical spirit didn’t hit me until around twenty. My mother put music in me when I was around five or six years old. I wasn’t that interested as a child, but as I grew older, I began to understand its power. Or shall I say, I began to understand the way it made me feel and I no longer felt ignored or misunderstood. Music understood me, music knew how I felt when I’ve felt so alone. So many times, music was the only thing that comforted me (aside from a big, strong man, that is).
Whenever people stood looking clueless at me, music has always known what was really going on inside of me. It always understands whenever I feel the urge to express myself through that particular medium. Heartbreak always inspires me to create a song. It is said that when you are hurting, you can come with some really good s%*t! It’s when your emotions are at their rawest that you express your true feelings from the heart. I don’t really express my true feelings that much anymore mainly because I haven’t been in a relationship in a while with anybody, not because I don’t want to be but because I feel so terribly misunderstood by so many people who know about me but they don’t really know me at all.
I want to be loved, but I also want to be understood, too. I feel like the man I’ve cared about for so long has abandoned me and has given his heart to someone else and this hurts, but it also helps me to write. I’m used to being heartbroken. I just wish I knew what good love felt like. I was in love once. I don’t know, maybe one day music will show me the way again.