Ok, so I am sitting here and I realize I have been duped. My mother is turning my daughter into her. The man down the street form where I live wants to get to know me. He went through my mom and my neighbor. All of the single lonely women on my block and he got me. The thirty-four-year-old with two kids who does everything on her own. He sees me and watches me and does all this other stuff. any how . I don’t want him I don’t want my daughter to get caught up I cannot be in this place anymore. I had it. I lost it all by the advise of listening to everyone else. And I got caught up because in a since my eyes were closed and I took the hand of the devil.
So now I need to devise a plan. I need to tell this man I am not interested in him he is not my type. He offers me a lot of things and has invited me into his house to basically woo me and get me to lay down and have sex with him. I looked at my best friend’s girlfriend yesterday and she is pretty but she is not me. I looked at her flowing in her pretty girl dress and her hair long. She sits back and is quiet. I sat back yesterday and got a chance to observe in an environment full of people yesterday. I saw this guy I liked. He came up and talked to some of my friends and my brother. He paid me no mind. I had on a hoodie and my hair was in a ponytail and I was limping from an injury I sustained last month. I was just stale looking, just stale yesterday. I watched him and he walked right over to her and sat down next to her. I then got and epiphany. I was stale and she was juicy.
My whole point is I am out of commission right now no job not in school a little bit of money and I just feel and look worthless. I am working on this. I am really. I gotta get back into commission. I cannot live like this anymore. I gotta get some juice, I gotta do this and then I will be back. I will. The quicker I get back to work is the quicker I can my daughter back and I won’t feel like this anymore.
