Wow, what a couple of weeks it has been for me. I have been reaching out to people that I don’t really know and becoming successful at it. I have been hurting for quite awhile now and it just isn’t easy for me right now. I feel like my life is a roller coaster. I have been trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I am now beginning to understand that while I am in my 30’s, my inner child is not. I feel like I am not wanted or loved. It has caused me to hurt. I feel like I am all alone. I am a Christian and I do go to church on a regular basis. I am in a small group, but things are just not feeling right. I want to go to God with what is hurting me but I am struggling with that. I don’t see how God could love a woman like me, with everything that I have done and been through. I have also been prayed for, but again, I don’t see how God could love me. One more thing, I am an abuse survivor.
I hurt. My heart feels like it is broken. Every time I let people become close to me, I end up pushing them away, which is happening now. I have already said this, but what is wrong with me...How do I heal my inner child, a question that I am now asking myself. So much so, that it has brought me to tears of how my inner child feels.
What can I do...Where do I go....Do I share how I feel with the women in my small group???? These are all questions I am now asking myself.
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