Hurting, Part 2

First of all I am glad that you realize that your past experiences can also effect your present relationships............Yes...faith is very important, and I also feel that it is very wise that you are speaking to one of your pastors. I had mentioned in a previous comment that I had a friend (which I lost) whom is a lot like you......However she has not realized some of the things you , nor do I think she has sought any counseling to help herself or taken any of the positive steps that you have so far...You are on the right track. And yes it is very hard to sometimes open up and trust for fear of being humiliated or people just not understanding. Once you are hurt it is hard to trust again...I know exactly what you are feeling.........Also this web-site is good to share things...........plus you meet other people whom share the same experiences.....I have been so fortunate to meet another person and we are now working on a friendship...Good Luck