And no, I am not anorexic because I mention the fear of gaining weight. But being almost 40, the metabolism slows down and I have to be careful because I had a thyroid problem and tend to gain weight easily. Believe me, just an extra five pounds will determine if I am going to fit into my size 6 pants and dresses. I don’t plan to go shopping for the next six months as I’m living frugally in the next six months to a year to save money for future investments, so I’m learning.
Okay, so I don’t have to drink when I go out but when I do drink I am a happy drunk and sometimes feel that I am borderline alcoholic but thank God I haven’t gotten there yet. See, this is my point. I feel left out when I go out and don’t drink. Everyone is having such a good time that if I act ‘normal’ without the alcohol in my system and go with the flow that I feel like the 3rd wheel.
But drinking is not just the issue. The next day, Bella calls me and tells of how her and MaryJo had the best time of their lives and how I should have ‘been there’.
Bella tells me, “You know what MaryJo said about you”? I said, “Let me guess”…”She said that you would rather read a book than go out to have a good time and meet men, you might just meet your prince charming”. Puleeeeez. At this point my blood was boiling because I know that that is not true.
“You know something? You’re right, I would rather stay at my home and read a book than go out every weekend and trash myself and regret it the next day”.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends but sometimes I need my space. What’s wrong with not going out one evening? Or the whole weekend? Or a whole month? And why does it have to be to a bar or a club? Can we do dinner and a movie? Or is that just with boyfriends? How about going to a show or something? I don’t mind going to a bar and lounge around to have a good time, on the contrary, I’m all for it. It’s the every weekend routine that gets to me.
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