A few years back I got to know a girl. A very innocent, beautiful, and very happy looking girl. I got to know her about two to three weeks before she left for home. I saw her sitting at a bus stop, and of course, I was to shy to approach and say hi to her, but she said hi and gave me smile that made my chest pounding.
I met that girl later at a friends place and we got introduced to each other, we clicked as if we have been long term friends, we talked, spent time walking, holding hands (very common for Asians), we even found each other laying by a pond watching the stars at night. It was very surprising, I thought I would be the only one coming to this place. We sat and talked for hours and then she finally fell asleep in my arms (as friends of course).
The more time we spent together, the more I came to like her, even though I found out she had a boyfriend back home (she didn’t tell me one of her friends did), I am not the kind of guy who would take another guy’s girl, but thinking about it now, I wish I did. She spent the last ten days at my apartment; I cooked for her and I tried to make her last ten day as happy as possible. At certain times during those ten days it almost felt as if her innocent eyes were asking me “Do you like me?” I said to myself, of course I do, I kept quiet, I just felt that being with her these last few days would make me happy. Time passed and it was finally the night before she was going to leave. She was teary eyed, so I was comforting her like you do to a child, and finally she fell asleep in my arms. I was so frustrated. She left the next day, I took her to the airport, she gave me a hug and a surprise kiss. I had given her a cuddly moose the night before—the kind women find cute even if they are older. She left and I waited for her to get on board the plane. That was the last time I saw her.
I don’t know why I wrote this article. I guess after so many years, I still miss her. I guess I am regretting what I didn’t do back then and I wish that I had gotten to know her sooner. I also think that I am feeling very lonely nowadays with only work in my daily schedule. So many regrets, did I pass up a girl that I think I was meant to be with? That’s a question I have never been able to answer. I guess this article sounds quite cheesy coming from a guy’s mouth.
