A Lover in Disguise?

My world completely turned upside down and all of my feelings I had for him came back. I wanted him back more than ever. Jake asked me back out and I said yes. I felt so stupid and I didn’t want to tell Shawn but I didn’t want to lie to him about it. So I wrote Shawn an email saying, “Jake asked me back out and I said yes.” I hated myself so much for doing that. It was a complete slap in the face to Shawn.

I went to check my mail and got an email back from Shawn. I was so excited until I read it. Shawn explained to me how he didn’t want to get involved with all of that chaos and he didn’t want to hear me complaining about it anymore. I was so upset and it wasn’t because of what he said to me. It was because he was so completely right and I had hurt Shawn so badly and I couldn’t take it. A long time had passed and Shawn and I had stopped talking completely. Jake and I finally broke up and this time for good. I still missed my friendship I had with Shawn and how we were so close but I knew I’d never get it back so I tried not to dwell on it. Then one day I logged onto AOL Instant messenger and I got an IM and it was from Shawn. He only said hello and I didn’t know what to say so I typed, “I thought you hated me?” he said. “Hate you? No why would I hate you?” and I said, “because of everything that happened with Jake?” Shawn said, “lol that? Who cares … we’re BFF’s remember?” after that we started talking more and more each day. I don’t think things will ever be the same between Shawn and I since now he has another girlfriend … but that’s another story …