“Sean” and I dated until the end of my senior year of high school. He found a woman two years older than his own mother and chose her over me. I was devastated because I had really come to treasure my time with him. He was my lover, my friend, but never my confidante. That was the role of the school psychologist. In the same week “Sean” broke up with me, the psychologist asked me out of the blue if I had any sisters or brothers. We had never discussed them before. I said yes, one of each, both younger. She asked if I thought my Daddy had ever touched my sister the way he had me. I was enraged at the thought because I had spent my childhood protecting my sister and brother from my father. The beatings I took for them, all the discipline I took for them and of course all the sex I made sure he only came to me for. But I went home that day after school and asked my younger sister if Daddy had ever touched her. She wouldn’t look me in the eye, only cried. I was frantic! I thought I had protected her from him all these years. The next day I told the school psychologist first thing and she excused herself from our session. I never saw her again after that, I think she got fired. The next thing I knew, a police officer in full uniform was pulling my baby sister off of the soccer field in front of all of her friends. It was humiliating and very scary for her and she quickly withdrew deep within herself. No one could reach her for a very long time.
By the time my sister and I got home from school that day, my dad had already left the house, at police request. Because my sister and I were not willing to press charges at that time and the law was the way it was back in 1984, he was not arrested. I was already nineteen so they could not legally do anything with me, but my sister, being three years younger could have been put in foster care had my father not chosen to leave the house. My sister had withdrawn so far within herself she was nearly catatonic and everyone was afraid she’d become suicidal if she went into foster care.
