Not trying to make it a race, but realizing it is, afraid to choose a path, never been good at this. I believe that God has touched my heart, and that it should be safe to listen to, but when its telling me two different things, I have no clue what I am getting my self into... I made a decision, I saw the light and set out on that trail, expecting every possible pitfall, but never considering another path at all... yet here it is, and where its leading I don't know. Is this another test, I’ve failed them all thus far, failure I’m familiar with, the burn of it almost comfortable now. My decision is clear, I see it, quite plainly, but will the ramifications re-break my heart, already tattered and torn, or bring the peace I have long sought within my pleading grasp. This should feel good, but it hurts so bad, can't stand the rain, but its coming fast... Lord, I surrender, as I have tried so many times before, show me your plan and let for me there be no more....
