Where is the heart in people who cause the wound? Evidentially it’s not in their morals or values. My values have never changed. The old saying you can’t change the spots just may be true. I do have traditional values in life and they are inbred in me. They are so set in stone they just may set a change my life in a 360. Traditional values are something you don’t think about. Traditional values are like getting up everyday and brushing your teeth. Some people might change the toothpaste occasionally, but always brush their teeth.
The 360 I am talking about came the day my husband took the toothbrush and gave it to his girlfriend and never gave it back. Over a year a go he tore my heart out. Today, I still sit alone. I am not sure if I am happy or sad but a court date is set for a week after Thanksgiving.
I haven’t been anywhere except work. I am still married and can’t find it in my heart or soul to justify going any where and put my self in a situation that would set a bad example for my children or my own being. And yet, I am so miserable. My traditional values have kept me in my own prison.
My values are what broke my marriage. Once I married him, slowly over the years, the realization of my moral, values, and standards were not how our unity began. My husband and I dated through letters while he was in the Navy. We interviewed each other, so to speak. We would ask each other how we wanted to raise children and how many, and what we wanted out of life. I thought he was the perfect man. I waited for the words to come out of my own mother’s mouth to tell me I made a mistake. My mother told me I married garbage, it cut me like a knife.
My husband told me people change and he wanted out, he fell in love with someone else and has been with her for three years. But I know the man I married was a warm, loving husband, man, and father. I sit alone, still faithful until the day we are divorced and will never go to that level. I hurt like so few whom have experienced the exact same betrayal. The garbage would be the woman to pursue a married man, and then the married man to continue to choose his betrayal in such a way to hurt someone. The man must have never had traditional values to begin with.
