Relationships

Hello to all:

My story is all about my family and me: I was once a teen who did not get the choices I chose: I feel that the Lord directed my path. When I was young I wanted to be a nun asked my parents and the answer was no. I graduated from school got accepted to Fisk university my parents said no they would not assist and it was to far from home. All of my siblings left the city and moved on and of course I am the youngest so I just stayed and went to a community college and finally got my BA in Theology working on my Masters at this time. I am now forty-four and working in Management, sometimes I feel as though I missed out on what my purpose is. My children are all grown and I have four grands, my husband recently join the Army so I am trying to find myself the problem is I have invested the majority of my life assisting others accomplished there dreams that I have lost sight of my own. I see my kids often and my husband in my opinion went through a mid life crisis by joining the military at this stage of his life I stood by his decision and let him go, he calls often and I get letter’s once a week but the truth of the matter is I have to learn to put my needs first and learn to find friends of my own. He want me to travel to spend time with him and we he comes home yes we spend time together but for me not enough so I’ve decide to take a course or two or find a part time job it just seems to get very tiresome at times. I wish that I can say it has been all good that would be an untruth we have been together for twenty-two years and married for twenty of them and I am not sure what his plans are or mind so I am just waiting for some divine guidance from the Lord as to what to do with the rest of my time that I have left on this earth.