Non-Monogamy: In Other Words an Open Marriage (Ours That Is)

But there have been many times where all of my efforts just did not pay off, but she never complained or made a big deal of it, in fact she said that I did please her in many ways and that she was happy with me and always was and will be. So anyway, with some coaxing and a little time, she did open up and admitted to what I thought was on her mind, well at least thinking of that is and as I thought so, it was to be with another man. Well she did not really say it word for word, but more like me asking questions and her answering yes or no and even when she did answer yes to the fact of having sex with another man, I could hear it in her voice that she was scared and worried that I would get upset and we would end up in a fight.

When she did open up and start talking about it, she admitted that she was worried that it would hurt me and that she did not want to do that and that she cared about me and so on. When she heard my answer, she was really shocked and was not expecting me to take it the way I did. Because I told her that I had a pretty good idea that is what it was and that in an odd kind of way, was a turn on to me, the thought of her having sex with another man and getting what she was really wanting, a guy that can last more than fifteen or twenty minute. What was even more of a surprise to me was the fact that she really liked it fast and hard, well not hard to the point that it was causing pain but more to the point of,  (how do I put it with out to graphic here) well just leave it at fast motion. With a little bit of skin smacking, not like you see in the those outlandish porn flicks, but enough to hear a little skin smacking and what I was not expecting was, she likes it when the guys penis is bigger, meaning thicker and just a little longer and mind you I am no pee wee either, for the most part I fall in to the just above average size. But now that really took me by surprise, I guess because I was not expecting it, but anyway we talked about it more and over the course of a few months we talked about it more and she even asked me if I wanted to be with another woman.