Empowered by divorce

Then at my son's first birthday party one of the guests took me aside to let me know she couldn't lie to me anymore. She had knowledge that my husband was cheating again. To be honest I was relieved. That was the excuse I was looking for. I needed proof. I never got solid proof so to this day he denies having cheated that time but for me that was the push I needed to get out. I called a lawyer and she told me if I left take anything that I want to keep because I may not get to keep anything I left behind. I waited until he was at work called some friends and family and moved as much of mine and my sons things as we could.

I cried not because I was leaving him but because I left my dog behind for fear that if I took the kid and the dog he surely would kill me. Guess what. He didn't kill me or hit me he just yelled at me. Then he begged me to come home. I didn't and even his friends were telling me I better not take him back again. He cried had and begged he even had his mom plead his case. I had to start all over and that was tough. Now I had a child to take care of and I was at square one. I moved back into my mom's house for a wile until I had enough money to get an apartment. I had to switch jobs so I could make enough money to support us on my own. I was not going to need him for anything. Any money I got from him (when he felt like paying) was just a bonus. I did go back to counseling for myself and I would tell anyone who feels they need to go to counseling it the best thing I ever did for myself. I had to get my mind better so that I could be a better mother. If I had the flu I would go to the doctor. This man took the core of who I was and stomped on it until I didn't believe I was worthy of being that girl anymore. I needed help trying to find her again.