I'm not mad at her because she doesn’t understand about depression. I asked our supervisor to ask her for my spare keys and birth certificate back and he said with surprise "she has your birth certificate?" I said “Yes, we was that close and this was petty shit, and a good relationship end the wrong way and needlessly.” He was like “wow.” I said “yah, wow is right.”
But I'm trying to move on, trying to heal a broken heart. I tell everyone at work “I miss my mom.” They smile. Hopefully time will tell and heal all wounds. Even the night manager talked to her again and explain what was going about all the calls and text messages was about. Tuesday was the first time she looked over when I was working and happened to look up and see a small smile to the side and I looked away real quick and prayed to myself "Please, come through and call me when your good and ready, please, please."
I was kinda begging her to when she's ready to. Everything’s gotta end and both of us got to move on. And I know I'm not the best person in the world. I even hate myself so much and I even told her that numerous times and she's told me that I shouldn’t because I'm not as bad as I think I am.
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