Cause the smell of smoke and perfume only made it worse. I would always have his clothes dry-cleaned, and cooking for him was an always also not because he ever asked, I just wanted to be a good girl to him. I wanted to do anything I could to change him to see what a great thing he had in front of him nothing ever worked. We graduated last year and well he lost his football scholarship due to bad grades and some trouble with alcohol. It was the worst time in his life, but I tried my hardest to comfort him through it all this is when he pushed me away the most.
He began working with his father in a contracting business and well we tried to have a baby since he was already making so much money and about to buy a house. I was so happy that he wanted a baby with me he still had his flings but as long as he still wanted to be with me I didn’t let it hurt me as much. We tried and tried but nothing came of it, I was so sad I was just so ready to have my baby. Early this year I got a phone call from a girl, “Hi, is this Emily?” “Yes” I replied. “I’m about to have Adam’s baby and just thought I should let you know.”
This is when I became devastated I didn’t know how to respond, I didn’t know what to say. We tried and tried and never could then he sleeps with this girl once and gets her pregnant. “Why?” is all I was able to ask, Oh God why did this happen to me? Why didn’t you let that girl be me? I stayed in my room for days, and never even heard from Adam again. He couldn’t even call to say sorry or even that it wouldn’t work out since he’s having a kid. He just disappeared. I had so many chances to make it work with good guys but I always stayed true to him. I wasn’t sure what I was gonna do with my life, because he was my life, anything I had ever planned for the future he was apart of. I seriously thought my life was over.
