Get to the story... so, he of course needs some physical interaction with someone... not me, because I can’t stomach it. Well, he found someone; I think it’s someone he may have crossed paths with before. I heard she is married, like we are, my husband and I. She and her husband are temporarily separated. Well you know what happens when you have sex and you don’t use protection. Well there are a few things that could happen, and by the Grace of God I have no terminal illness, no STD. However, she became pregnant and chose to have this child, and also chose to go back with her husband, and told my husband he should try to get back with me. Of course she didn’t know she was pregnant for quite some time, I think she was almost showing. Long story short, I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. I didn’t tell you that I have been on a spiritual journey for some time now, and I have learned many things. Forgiveness, well that takes a lot of maturity... but I’m there most days. Some days I have to forgive all over again. So I guess you could say I didn’t really forgive. I don’t know.
So ladies and guys if you’re reading, I can’t tell this story to most people I know. Just hurts to talk about it. The child—innocent in this. My husband well he “just wants to do the right thing.” And I want to ask him, why didn’t you do the right thing and use some protection? Why didn’t you do the right thing and tell me this situation before you decided to ask could we get back together? Why didn’t you do the right thing and leave me on my own? I missed him, but I was letting go. He couldn’t let go and I gave in. I love him, yes. But I don’t know how to deal with this situation. Our son is 31 years old, and you tell him... he might have a baby brother.
