My Life

To: Shy and Shattered Don't be ashamed to ask for help even though you've been through this before. Someone's told me that sometimes you just have to swallow your pride and get help. After all, that's why God provided services and organizations even at church to help the needy. Please get help ASAP especially with your four little children. They're are so innocent and precious gift from God. Take care and God bless. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Don't give up. I was married for 25 years. Unfortunately mine ended very badly. He held me and my son hostage with a gun. My son is 21 and he was terrified. I am talking about a boy that his father absolutely adored , he was his life. So I know how bi-polar people can snap. For the last year it ha been awful, we didn't recognize him anymore. He got help but stop taking the meds. He did things o me that I still can't get straight in my mind. My situation ended with me getting the gun from him. It was him or my son and me. Although I really didn't care if it were me becuase he had worn me down so much this past year I was ready to go, just to get peace. But when it was about my son, I couldn't let him hurt him. He is gone now. For the life of me I can't figure all of this out in my min d. It has been a month now, and cant sleep for I keep seeing things I dont want to. I have always had GOD in my life but can't figure out why it would hve to end through my hands. Stay away from him.

HOW DO YOU LEAVE? I COMMEND YOU. I 34 YEARS OLD AND I AM IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP THAT I NOW REALIZE SHOULD HAVE BEEN OVER A LONG TIME AGO. WE HAVE TWO SMALL CHILDREN TOGETHER SO I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO LEAVE. BUT I KNOW IT IS OVER AND I'VE TOLD HIM. HE KEEPS APOLOGIZING AND PROMISING NEVER TO DO IT AGAIN, BUT I DON'T BELIEVE HIM. I LOVE HIM BUT I'VE BEEN UNHAPPY FOR A WHILE NOW. HE'S JUST LOST HIS MOM THIS PAST SEPTEMBER SO I HAVE ALL THE SYMPATHY IN THE WORLD FOR HIM. I'VE BEEN WITH HIM ALMOST FOUR YEARS AND I KNOW IT WILL BE VERY HARD FOR HIM TO GET ALONG WITHOUT US BUT I HAVE DECIDED THAT THIS IS NO LONGER MY PROBLEM. MY HAPPINESS AND THE HAPPINESS OF MY CHILDREN ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE PITY I FEEL FOR HIM. I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW I WILL LEAVE WITH FOUR CHILDREN, NO MONEY, AND I LIVE DISTANCES FROM ANY FAMILY. BESIDES I AM ASHAMED TO ASK ANY OF THEM FOR HELP BECAUSE I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE WITH AN EX AND THOUGHT I WAS SMARTER THAN THIS. I PRAY TO GOD EVERY DAY.

How do you start over? Like you I have God in my life and thank him that I did finaly wake up and get out. My husband is institutionalized, he had spent most of his life in prision. I am confussed though, could it not really be that he was in jail for just being so mean and now that is the exscuse to miss treat me that way. Any way I had to get out he shot me in the leg last year the day after my birthday. Well that is just one thing he done. I am just glad I got out and I hope you stay away from your ex too. I gave mine alot of chances and he proved not to stop, he even went to church and got saved but then slowly slid back into himself again. I don't have the answers I just don't believe they ever change! Good luck with your new life. I'm like you at home again at 36. It is sooo hard to start over. I will get through it though just like the rest of yhall. Stay strong and away from men like him. Kimberley

i just wanted to say keep the faith and your NOT alone. I have recently moved out of an abusive marriage. I had been in for 20yrs. And it was one of the hardest things Ive ever done. I married when i was 16, Ive spent more of my life with him then without. I do miss him & still love him, but i wonder is it him i miss or the man i wanted him to be. DONT give up, the will of god will never take you where the grace of god will not protect you.