My story may sound too familiar but none the less I’m living it. I feel bad just writing about it, it may even sound selfish. I feel this way because I’m very blessed with everything I need except having the person I’m in love with for the rest of my life. I have two grown beautiful daughters and their happiness means the world to me and don’t want to trouble them with my issues. I recently ended a three year relationship with someone I truly believed loved me just as much but he recently married someone else that he had just met this year. He was the world to me and for a long time I thought he felt the same way with the way we were to each other, I thought love will conquer all. I found out in the long run that the statement is not true. I’m devastated by the whole incident, I had to see a doctor who had to prescribe me anti-depressants to try and relieve the pain I was feeling. The worst part was not having to talk to someone about it who cared for me, I felt so abandoned and humiliated that I had this happen to me again. Every time I tried talking to my family about it I just felt I was being judged. I know now that he truly did not love me as much as I thought or else he would not have married her. Co-workers and family say I should go out dating again to find someone else but I can’t even get myself out for a walk during weekends. I think I’m still mourning but I’m wondering if I’ll ever fall in love again, I don’t feel I will ... the first time I fell in love it took me five years to go out again and now this ... I’m afraid I’ve crawled into that hole again. I’m afraid I may never find anyone to be in love with who only loves me. If I don’t I’m hoping and praying that I’ll just be happy on my own and content with my life. Is that possible? Sometimes I don’t think so cause I still have feelings for him and catch myself crying and missing him then feeling sorry for myself. I’ve tried the dating sites and have had many replies but only met two men and it was not a good experience. I’m afraid of meeting men that way but I don’t like going to bar/dancing clubs either.
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Hi Lorraine, thank you for your kind comment on my article, I know it sounds too common and it seems like an easy fix which it is. You are right, I may find another if I let myself but that's just it, after this one I've felt so discouraged that I'll probably miss my chance and regret it. I guess it'll just take time to heal more than anything. I think I'm making progess. Thank you again, I'll be reading this over and over again, thanks.
How lucky you are! You could have been married to this man who really did not love you. The marraige would have been terrible and you would have been miserable.The pain of a broken heart hurts long and deep. We believe finding new love will heal the 'crack' sooner. I believe all loves after that first.. are just 'patches' unfortunatly each one hurts just as much.The only way to avoid the pain avoid the love. Who ever said 'its better to have love and lost than never have loved at all " I'm sure said that after a very long time parted. You are going to have another. You'll meet when you least expect it. So start preparing today! and don't spend too much idol time alone.
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