Physical And Mental Abuse

I suffered for years of mental and physical abuse from my ex-husband. I know this sounds crazy, but think the physical abuse was easier than the mental abuse. Because physical abuse pain will go away; but the mental abuse will stay with you for the rest of your life. He used to call me fat and ugly, and tell me I was repulsive, when pregnant carrying his child. Told me I was stupid and could never make it on my own without him. And after hearing that for years, you soon believe it. (As sick as it sounds.) He used to hit me, black my eyes so I was too ashamed to go to work. He hit me in my left eye so hard that I ended having a detached retina, and had to have two cornea transplants, a few years later. I have been away from him for sixteen years now and ten years ago got re-married to a “real man”. But I have been on depression medication for fifteen years now. I am happy with my life; but you never forget your past as hard as you try to block it out of your mind. It always haunts you.

As far as him. He has re-married a lady older than him, who is also an alcoholic. They deserve each other.

I wish I would have been smart and strong enough to leave him alot sooner; but at that point in time, I felt sorry for him and thought I could change him. But you cannot no matter how hard you try. You cannot help someone who does not want to help their selves. Life goes on, and at least I am happy and safe now.