Desperately Wanting to Be a Mother

By: jamie (View Profile)

Hey everyone, my name is Jamie and I’m twenty years old. For the longest time I can remember I’ve always wanted to be a mother, I have been with my fiancé for six and a half years ... When I was fourteen years old we thought that I was pregnant and we were so happy, we were scared but happy. Well we found out that I wasn’t and ever since then we’ve always wanted to be parents, well November 2006 I found out that I was pregnant. I was sooo excited!!! I went home and told me fiancé ... we then told our families and they were excited ... and then four days later I started having a miscarriage ...  I was five weeks and two days ... that was the most awful feeling we have ever felt ... I was depressed and very angry ... we finally got better and four months later in February 2007 I went to the doctor because I thought I had a UTI ... he came back and told me that I was pregnant ... oh I was scared, happy, and upset all at the same time ... he told me and I started bawling ... I went home and told my fiancé and of course he was happy!!!!

I felt like God was finally giving us our miracle. I was at work one day and I started to hurt so I decided to go to my OB just to be sure. I worried all the time ... well when I got there I had started bleeding ... he tool some blood and wanted me to come back in three day to get some more ... those were the longest three days of my life ... I went back and he called me later on that afternoon to tell me that I had miscarried again ... I thought I was going to die ... and I was soo angry at God ... why did he give me the miracles and then just take them right back? I was also five weeks and two days with this pregnancy ... so for a while we didn’t try for another baby cause I didn’t want to put myself or my fiancé through that again, but for the last three months we have been trying and we haven’t had any luck ... but we will keep trying and one day we will be parents ... .

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posted: 08.07.2008
Genie
Hi Ladies. Last Wed 7/30/08 I found out I was 4 weeks pregnant. I was nervous and excited because it was a surprise, especially since we were being careful. I started bleeding on Friday, went to the ER and they took blood work. Hormone lever 213, great right! Bleeding was light so they said not to worry. It continued and on Monday 8/4/08 had to go back for more blood work. Hormone lever 45. They told me I was having a miscarriage and today I am still bleeding. Very depressing and emotions running wild. I find myself crying for no reason. Feeling a little better but now just wondering, am I able to conceive???????
posted: 03.25.2008
Shawna Goes
that has recently happened to me i took 5 at home tests all came up positve, i was so happy on a friday i went to a clinic that test came out negative so i didnt know what to think, then on a monday went to a differnt clinic showed up positve so then i went back to the first clinic i went to and that test then showed up positive i was sooooo happy you couldnt imagine, the clinics told me i was 5 an a half weeks pregnant and i was due november 20th, then later that night when i got home from the clinic i had some bad bleeding and clothing so i went to the hospital and they said my hormone level was a 28 so they said i might have had a miscarrage or i was to ealry in my pregnancy to tell so they said in 2-3 weks have my hormones checked if they went up im pregnant and if they went down i had a miscarrage so i am now waiting to find out.....
posted: 02.19.2008
Kira
Jamie, Thank you so much for sharing. My husband and I have had 2 miscarriages within the last two years. We are trying for the third times a charm...keeping our fingers crossed. Every month we try and every month no pregnancy. We'll keep trying. We have never been tested to find out what is wrong. Hopefully this month we will have success and be able to make it a successful full term pregnancy. Anyways thanks for sharing, it is nice to know we aren't alone out there. Good luck! Kira
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