That’s not all. Originally, the doctor told me that since my kids were older and I had the pair, that a hysterectomy would “fix” my problem. I said, “Don’t you dare take any more than what you have to. I don’t want to go through menopause right now, way too soon, I am too young.” I was feeling vulnerable but managed to stand up for myself and my rights. How dare this doctor take away what is mine? My organ, my body!
“Well, what’s more important, your health or your looks?” He wanted to do a horizontal incision from my belly button to my pubic bone. Not only does he want to mutilate me he wants to chop me up too? Ugh! The incision was done vertically like a C-section and he did a good job.
At this time I could not believe what I was hearing. I also had a carcinoid tumor growth in which an oncologist told me that the problem could come back and worse.
“Are you trying to scare me?” Not once did he or the surgeon tell me that I would experience early menopause even though only “half of me was working.” But all they could manage to tell me was “full hysterectomy.” I could still hear the words echoing in the back of my brain.
“No but the problem can come back,” the doctor insisted, “just know that.” “I don’t think that you made the right decision in not getting a full hysterectomy.” I was so furious that I could not even talk my feelings out. I kept thinking to tell him “And I don’t think that you understand that my decision is my decision and hope that you can respect that”. But I left the office in silence and a knot of tears in my throat because after all, I did feel confused. But instead of dreading in the morbid thought of the situation coming back I started to venture on a healthy lifestyle.
Two years after, I got the scare of my life and was having pains again and was affecting my everyday activities. I went to the doctor and they found another cyst on the other ovary about half the size as the other one and they found a few fibroids. Menopause causes fibroids but I will look more into that.
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