When Will It Stop?

Hey Ashley. Ok first, you go girl... you have already done some really hard work in your life. The kind some people NEVER do about theirs. And that tells me that you are an incredibly strong, determined young woman. That said, I am recovering from anorexia and the most important thing I have learned in the process is that my eating disorder is not really about the fear of being fat. It is a coping mechanism. By choosing what goes into my body, stays in there, or comes out, I gain a sense of control over something since I can't control the rest of my world. It is an addiction. Just like a drug addiction, it is another way to hide from emotions and pain. It numbs the pain, but it also numbs everything else. Hope, Love, Joy... those are masked by coping mechanisms as well. I encourage you to face those emotions. Talk to your therapist: that is what they are there for and they can help with understanding. Take refuge in knowing that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

WOW! And I thought I had heard just about everything. I must commend you for your honesty and your ability to recognize what you do. Some people never do that. First and foremost, I must agree with Sarah that Jesus Christ gives us all HOPE. I was an addict for many years-losing my kids to CPS (4 of them) is what eventually led to saving my life. My major character defect was lousy communication skills. I could talk up a storm, but to convey my real feelings was impossible. Life is full of choices, Ashley. Only you can chose to make a better life for yourself. Period. My life was a hopeless end until I found God and now it's and endless hope. I also agree with Proud Grandma about the weight issues. Skinny is not attractive. Robust is way more attractive. Love yourself enough to make the right choices in life. Otherwise, you will lose control of the consequences. I wish you much happiness in the future. Email me anytime at tambonies@yahoo.com, okay?

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Hey Ashley! I just want you to know that I have hope for you if you would like to hear about some hope. I used to be bulimic also, and addiction runs in my family, but my only hope is Jesus Christ. He is the only freedom that I have ever had and if you would like to hear about this hope than please email me. We'll never meet, i just know that you are in a desparate situation and Jesus came to heal the broken, not people who are 'good.' please email me! sel04b@acu.edu

Meredith, you should be proud of yourself and if you can stop a drug addiction than you can do anything that you set your mind to do. Weight is not a bad thing. alot more men perfer a heavier woman than you relize. I was a larger woman at one time ,but not huge, i got sick and i lost about 50 pounds and if i had not of been on the larger side i could have died? I had something to work with LOL. When i could eat again and i wasn't puking it up it felt so good to me and as the weight was coming back i thought i didn't want to be heavy again but on the other hand i would rather be fat, healthy, and living than to feel the way i did before. Everyone tells me i look better heavy and my husband loves it! Just be you and if you feel good don't let anyone put you down. Having a little weight on you may save your life someday as it did mine.