The axe falls, and you’re left on your own. How do you handle it? The featherbed looks inviting, with your sound machine to drown out the world, and all that is going on in it. But wait, the “in it” is your world. Your safety, your kids’ safety, your security, your foundation. Why do you have to fight for it? It was just yours a minute ago. How could it have all gone so wrong, so fast? Two people don’t get along. Two people see things in a different way, they come at the same problem from a different angle. Why can’t that be worked out in a way that won’t cost you and your kids your home, your sanctity? You try, you go to small claims court, but it’s thrown out because a motion for divorce has been filed. You are getting no money, and you have no money. You feel trapped in your own home, in your own skin. You get a lawyer to protect yourself, and that’s the end of the money you put aside. Now, what will he do while holding your future in his hands? Will he answer your frantic e mails, your cries for help? This is a person you spent thirty minutes of your entire life with. Does he care that gas is over three dollars a gallon? Or that your two boys eat more than a horse in a week, and three gallons of milk every two days could almost pay off the credit card debt. It remains to be seen, yet.
So, what are you going to do? Cry? Been there, only leaves swollen, red eyes, and you sob for a half an hour uncontrollably. Even that is against your will! And there is less sadness than there is madness. You don’t cry when you’re mad, so that’s taken care of! Now what? Patience is a virtue for a reason, almost no one has any. You patiently wait for your lawyer to respond, and you try to go about your normal routine. It’s okay there’s only one hundred and thirty three dollars in your account, you tell yourself. The lawyer will come through in time. How do you stay strong, and not let the bad make you ill?
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