Life, Anxiety, Depression?

By: Manda CdeBaca ( Little_person View Profile)

I am all new to this and this is my first time being here, and I seen others people stories. So I thought hey maybe I can write mine and get some advice.

My name is Manda I am nineteen years old. And just about a month ago I was drinking a lot. Why? I don’t know just to do it and not to think about reality and to have fun. But then one morning my whole body went numb and I got really weak and everything around me was slow motion.

When I went to the hospital I told the doctors I felt like my body was shutting down—all the vitals in my body where high and my heart was pounding. All the doctors told me I needed to stop drinking and drink water because my body was dehydrated.

Three days later I couldn’t sleep and I wasn’t the same anymore. I felt like I was leaving a dream. Every time I would try to fall asleep I was afraid I wouldn’t wake up. Scary, huh?

Then a week after that I started to get painful headaches that just lasted forever and would never go away. I even got a MRI but of course the MRI said everything was normal... I kept going back to the hospital and to doctors appointments and they all said I had anxiety. I have about six different prescriptions and haven’t taken any meds. I am scared that I will get on meds and they won’t work for me or they will change me.

I have an acupuncturist, and it’s helping a lot. He gave me herbal medicine in which I think is way better than what western doctors have. I also have a counselor which I hope will help me. My anxiety has me stuck its like its a chronic type and never leaves...its not just the type to come and go here and there—its just stuck with me...

Any advice? Please.

First published October 2007

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Hang in there, Manda! I'm going through some rough times right now too and I'm reaching out to anyone and everyone for help. Keep your head up-do what you feel is right for you. I know a lot of people feel the need to tell you what works best for them-but the same thing doesn't always work for everyone, but do know that they are just trying to help you. Take care!

Dear Manda, I am right now battling with anxiety and depression, I have been for a while now, I have however started using hypnotherapy tapes to get rid of my fears. I never believed in this stuff before, but out of desperation to not use those meds that have serious side effects, I thought I would try it, I am after just 1 month doing allot better, not where I want to be yet, but not where I was. I can actually be around people now. I couldn't do that before, It is worth it, do some research, hypnotherapy is being used around the world to heal anxiety and depression. Hope this helps.

I was about 16 when I started getting your symtoms. I am now 56,ughhhh. Get professional help now please. Herbal meds only last a short time. Prescription meds are better for long term. Doctors know so much more than they use to. Give them a chance. Try to find the cause of the anxiety. Drinking doesn't help and causes more problems. Counseling helps, you can learn different techniques to mellow yourself out. Good Luck

Dear Manda, I have experienced exactly the same anxiety as yourself as well as panic attacks that eventually made my life so small that I never wanted to leave the house. My anxiety started when I was sixteen years old and with time and experience behind me it all makes sense that I suffered so. To numb by anxiety and panic I drank a lot of alcohol - a lot and it worked for a time until it didn't and then things got worse. I didn't realize it then but the alcohol was actually perpetuating more anxiety and panic. How could my one true friend turn on me like that? Needless to say, it took a whole lot more drinking before I realized that there was a better way to reduce my anxiety and panic. (That doesn't have to be your story.) What I learned and better yet, what helped me become peaceful and happy was t understand that my teenage brain at the time was growing and spitting out chemicals that makes all teenagers feel 'crazy' (That's why fully formed adult brains can't understand teenag

I have had a lot of the same symptoms you describe, connected to a similar situation. My anxiety prevented me from eating and my wieght plummeted. I felt under attack for weeks at a time, so I can relate to the feeling that it is stuck with you. The good news is, it isnt. I plan on writing an article on my experiences with anxiety and panic soon and you might find it helpful. I applaud your hopeopathic strategy, as relaxation techniques and herbs helped me so much more than the antidepressants I tried. Feel free to message me if you need to talk.

Hang in there, you're on the right path. You were drinking a lot, which affects your sleeping and does all sorts of other things to your body. Your body is getting used to being without alcohol and it will take awhile for it to settle down and for you to feel better. Keep on writing, see you counselor and get some exercise. Walking is easy and it's always helped me when I've been anxious and depressed. Take care.

I remember being 19 and being anxious/depressed...keep writing. It helps. I recently self-published my memoir and it's basically about going from Rock Bottom to Rock ON! www.lipstickandthongbook.com Be well... ~Courtney

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