Well it wasn’t long before they started helping themselves to me as well, I woke up one night to find one of them laying behind me I froze he just carried on and raped me, I acted like nothing happened. I was to ashamed and scared, all the guys slept in one room so the others saw what was going on, then the next night his friend decided to do the same but he didn’t wait till I was sleeping he just climbed on me, I just lay there feeling numb, I think I had become detached from myself like it was just the way life was, the next morning I left, I slept with friends, out on park benches, in cars, on beach, then one weekend me and my friends where hanging out and drinking then these guys came over to us, my friend liked one of them so she went of with him and left me there, this well built guy came over and started forcing himself on me, he pinned me down on a bench and raped me.
I remember just staring at the stars in the sky wishing I was up there, I couldn’t feel anything after that I ended up going back home, I still told no one, I thought that was just how the world was. After leaving school I got a little job but nothing I held down, we would go out and drink at weekends still I looked older than my age so from 14 I was buying the drink, we started hanging around with couple guys that had a car was more dangerous and a lot of fun, one of them had a party for his 18th birthday I got very drunk and ended up sleeping with him.
As time went on I was working and still staying with my parents. I was 15. I woke up one morning and felt this like butterflies a movement in my stomach, it made me feel sick, it kept happening, I left it and left it I wasn’t ready to have a kid, but I couldn’t leave it any more I was starting to put on weight, I had to tell my mum, she was OK, when I went to doctors I was already nearly 7 mths gone, I turned 16 at the end of June and had my son 2 weeks later, fortunately I had always loved kids and it came naturally to me, I was also very mature for my age.
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